Ambassador’s Daughter
Script written by Thomson Ng’ambi | Master of Legal Studies | Part 1/2
I was only five, but I remember
everything about
that night. Natalie and I were
jumping on the bed, giggling
and hitting each other with
pillows. All of a sudden, she
put her finger to her lips and
told me to hush. (Just because
she was six minutes older,
she thought she could boss
me around.) When I stopped
squealing, I heard quiet popping
noises. They got louder
and louder. Within minutes,
someone was pounding on our
front door. I had no idea what
was going on.
Oh, we’d overheard stories.
People said living in
Africa was dangerous, that
even though our dad was an
ambassador and we lived on a
compound, my parents should
think about Natalie and me.
Mom would always give me a
hug and tell me not to worry.
Daddy would tousle my hair,
say Jesus was taking care of
us, and send me off to play. I
figured there was nothing to
worry about.
With all the banging, I had
a feeling that night would be
different. My sister tiptoed
over to our bedroom door and put her ear against it. Despite
my objections, Natalie opened
the door just far enough to
squeeze through. Then she
crept to the top of the steps.
She whispered, “Daddy’s telling
Mommy not to cry. He’s
telling her everything will be
OK.” Those are the last words
I heard my sister say because
she flew down the stairs. I, on
the other hand, dove under
the bed.
No matter how hard I
pressed my hands to my ears,
I couldn’t block out the yelling
and the crying. I heard Daddy
say he wouldn’t go to the U.N.
if the soldiers left my mom
and Natalie alone. I could hear
Mom begging them to stop. I
remember biting my lip so I
wouldn’t call out. The voices
got quieter. Suddenly, there
were three loud bangs. For
a moment, everything was
perfectly still.
One of the soldiers started
yelling at the others, telling
them to find the computer
files. There was a lot of banging
and crashing.
“It’s not here!”
That’s when I heard one of
the most terrifying sounds ever. Someone was stomping
up the stairs. I curled up in a
ball —and waited.
I heard the hinges creak
as he pushed the door open.
Then, before the soldier came
into my room, one of the others
called out, “I found it! Let’s
get going. We’ve got a lot more
to do before we head back to
camp.”
When I finally went downstairs,
it was awful. Daddy’s
books and CDs were scattered
all over the living room.
Every drawer was open. Every
cupboard. It was scary walking
around the blood at the bottom
of the stairs. I ran from
room to room, but couldn’t
find anyone… until I went into
the kitchen.
I was only five, and for a long
time I couldn’t remember
what happened that night.
But it all came back to me.
Lisa and I were playing in our
room, laughing and jumping
on the bed. She loved that. It
made her feel brave. Brave
is not a word I would use to
describe my sister. Sometimes
I needed her to be brave, but
she never was.
Silly girl, even when I told
her what to do, she wouldn’t
do it —except that night. I told
her to stop hitting me with
the pillow and be quiet. I don’t
know why she chose right
then to listen to me, but
she did. We heard popping
noises that got louder and
louder. Soon, soldiers were
banging on the door.
I told Lisa what Father
said to Mother. “Don’t
worry…” Boy! Was he wrong!
I always had to know what
was going on. I couldn’t
stand to be left out. And if
I suspected someone was
keeping a secret from me…
Let’s just say I wouldn’t give
up until I found out what it
was.
That night was no different.
Curiosity got the best of
me. I snuck out into the hall.
Then, without thinking, I ran
down the stairs. There, stood
the biggest, most frightening
man! He wore camouflage
gear and had black stripes
on his face. He was holding
the biggest gun I’d ever seen.
The soldiers kept yelling
at my father. They wanted
him to give them something.
When Father said he didn’t
know what they were talking
about, the leader had a fit.
He grabbed Mother by the
hair. He threatened to do all
sorts of horrible things to
her —and to me, if my father
didn’t cooperate.
Father begged them to
leave us alone, finally promising
not to go to the U.N.
They didn’t listen.
I rarely left the compound, but
I didn’t know what else to do.
Soon, I was outside the gates.
I walked until it got dark. I
was so tired, I didn’t even feel
scared. Normally, I was terrified
of the dark. Natalie loved
to sneak out of the house after
we’d been tucked in. Occasionally,
she would talk me
into exploring with her. I was
glad our door squeaked. It was
the perfect excuse for staying
in our room.
Eventually, I couldn’t walk
any farther. I saw a pile of garbage
beside the road and hid
behind it. I didn’t mean to fall
asleep. I just wanted to rest for
a few minutes, but I couldn’t
keep my eyes open. Just before
dawn, I woke up to the rumble
of Jeeps passing by. I peeked
out from behind my “fort” and
saw truck after truck filled
with soldiers. I clamped my
hands over my mouth to keep
from crying out.
I waited for a long time after
the last truck disappeared.
When I risked standing up,
I saw a long line of people
coming down the road. Most
of them were women and
children. I fell into step at
the back of the line, hoping
no one would notice. If my
clothes hadn’t been so dirty
and rumpled, they would
have set me apart. At least I
had the right coloured skin.
We walked all day. No one
said a word. Even though
there was nothing to eat or
drink, I kept going. I didn’t
want to be left alone. Besides,
the soldiers might come back.
I never wanted to see another
soldier again.
The sun was going down
when I saw a camp of some
kind up ahead. It didn’t take
long to get close enough to
see what it was. More children.
More women. There
were even some old men. It
was my new home.
Someone grabbed me from
behind. He clamped his huge
hand over my mouth. I kicked
and flung my arms wildly.
I even tried to bite him, but
it didn’t work. My father
begged them to leave Mother
alone, to let me go. One of
the soldiers was holding a
gun to my father’s head, but
I still wanted him to do more
than talk. Why didn’t he give
them what they wanted? Why
didn’t he fight back?
“Quit your squirming, you
little brat!” the soldier who
was holding me hissed in my
ear. I didn’t stop. He must
have gotten tired of it because
he threw me over his shoulder,
spun around and stomped
out of the house. He tossed
me in the back of the Jeep that
was parked by our front door.
I hit my head, and everything
went dark.
It must have been hours
before I woke up. The sun
was rising. When I did come
to, there was a dirty bandana
stuffed in my mouth.
My hands were tied behind
my back. I would have tried
to jump out of the truck, but
I ached all over. Plus, there
must have been a dozen soldiers
crammed in there with
me. I struggled to sit up. A few
of them glanced at me, but
they continued talking. The
cigarette smoke was so thick,
it made me gag.
I got up on my knees and
looked over the tailgate. I
couldn’t believe what I saw.
It was my sister. I remember
asking myself, “Where am I?
What is Lisa doing behind a pile of garbage?” She didn’t
see me. She was curled up in
a ball, not even looking in my
direction. It would have made
me feel better if she’d at least
seen me. I couldn’t help it; the
tears started to run down my
cheeks.
“Stop crying, kid. It won’t do
you any good.”
I wanted to go over and kick
him, but of course I didn’t.
Someone would have stopped
me. The truck was bouncing
too badly, anyway. Just then,
my stomach growled. You
would have thought there was
nothing funnier in the world.
Every man in that truck burst
out laughing. I flung myself
at the nearest soldier, but he
pushed me down and grabbed
a piece of the same rough
rope that was cutting into
my wrists. He tied my ankles
together.
After several hours, the
trucks came to a stop. The
soldier closest to the back of
the Jeep dragged me out and
threw me over his shoulder
like a sack of dirty laundry.
I looked around at the camp
that would become my home.
Before that moment, I didn’t
really understand what it was
like to be poor. It sounds crazy.
After all, I lived in Africa.
People around the world knew
how things were, but not me.
Now I realize how much our
parents protected us. We lived
behind the compound walls.
It was like living in a fortress.
Nothing bad could ever happen.
At least that’s what I’d
thought.
In the camp, I was surrounded
by naked, dirty boys
and girls. Many of the older
children wore clothes that
were tattered and stained.
Shirts hung from bony
shoulders but couldn’t cover
their round, bloated bellies.
I looked down at my silk
pajamas and felt strange.
I thought of all the pretty
dresses and play clothes in
my closet at home. I doubt
if any of those children ever
dreamed of having such nice
things.
A filthy girl… She didn’t
look any older than I was, but
I learned later that she was 12.
Anyway, she grabbed at my
shirt. It frightened me. Where
was Natalie? She would have
protected me. I looked around.
There was nowhere to run,
nowhere to hide. All of a sudden,
Josh appeared. He was
almost six feet tall. He looked
like a grown up to me, but he
was only 14.
Like I said, Josh was just
there. He gave the girl a look
and spoke her name. She
pulled her hand back as if
my pajamas were on fire. She
hung her head and slunk
away. I looked up at him. I
didn’t know who I was more
afraid of. At least the girl was
my size. Then Josh looked
down at me and smiled. That
smile made me a little less
frightened.
The days went by. I saw
more than any little girl should
see. I saw more than anyone
should see. I thought about
the time I’d stubbed my toe…
Stubbed my toe? Crazy, huh?
You would have thought the
world was coming to an end. I
hollered and carried on. Mom
came running. She gathered
me in her arms and rocked me
until I felt better. In the camp,
I watched moms with their
babies. They would sit there,
holding their children, and
stare off into space. No tears.
No emotion on their faces.
I remembered when my
grandma and grandpa came
to visit from the States. They
brought all kinds of presents:
books, toys, clothes. There
were some old men and
women at the camp. Some of
them probably had grandchildren,
but they had no gifts to
give. They couldn’t even play
with the children. Not that
anyone felt like playing. With
no moms or dads, no grandmas
or grandpas who could
take care of them, no wonder
the children did awful things
just to get some food or an old,
torn blanket.
I’ll never forget the smell
of the camp. Once, our cook
forgot to put away all the
groceries. She got busy doing
something else, and a package
of meat sat on the counter all
day. When Natalie saw it, she
said, “Let’s make supper.”
I didn’t want to. Our parents
always told us how dangerous
it was in the kitchen. The
sharp knives. The hot stove.
But Natalie didn’t care. Once
she got it in her head that she
wanted to do something, she
almost always did it—or at
least tried.
When she opened the meat,
we both coughed and gagged.
I had never smelled anything
so awful. That smell, however,
was nothing compared to
the smell in the camp. Many
people were sick, and some of
them smelled even worse than
the rotten meat. Life in the
camp was like being trapped
in a nightmare that didn’t end.
But Josh was always there.
When I didn’t think my stomach
had ever hurt so badly, he’d
bring me food. I never knew
where he’d gotten it. Maybe
from the Red Cross truck that
came by sometimes. Maybe
from someone who tried to
hide it. I wasn’t sure I wanted
to know. I’d seen boys —and
girls— beaten up for a scrap of
bread. When I was thirsty, Josh
found water. Sure it was warm
and dirty most of the time, but
it was all there was. He even
scrounged some paper and the
stub of a pencil from somewhere.
I loved to draw.
It didn’t take long to forget
my soft bed and all my pretty
things. It scared me, but I
even began to stop thinking
about my sister. Josh became
my protector. I never saw him
hurt anyone. He took care of
lots of us, but it seemed all the
mean kids stayed away from
him. Maybe it was because
he was so big. Maybe it was
something else.
A few weeks after I went
to live in the camp, I got the
courage to ask him why he
was so kind to me.
“My parents were missionaries. They taught me
it was important to care about
others. My mom taught children
to read and write. My dad
helped people in remote areas
dig wells and build huts for
their families. Plus, I know how
you feel. I had folks who loved
me —and a little brother— before
the soldiers came.”
He didn’t need to say
anymore. I knew how he felt
about the soldiers. Now, Josh
was my family and the camp,
my home.
Home? Yeah, right!
The man carrying me tossed
me into the nearest tent. I
didn’t want to, but I cried out
when I hit the hard dirt. I hurt
all over, but I didn’t want to
admit it. I also didn’t want to
admit that I was scared. I always
saw myself as the brave
one. My captor snickered,
turned and left me alone.
I lay there for a few minutes,
fighting off tears. Then I sat up
and brushed off my pajamas.
I tried to at least. The more I
brushed, the dirtier they got.
My hands were covered in dirt
and oil. What did it matter?
My stomach growled, and I
realized I had to find something
to eat. I crept to the
front of the tent and carefully
pushed back the flap.
“What do you think you’re
doing?” A man with a gun at
his hip and a knife strapped
to his leg was right outside
the tent.
I stood up tall, took a deep
breath and did my best not to
let my voice waver. “I… I’m
hungry. I would like something
to eat.” Before I could
stop myself I added, “Please.”
(Mother always insisted we
use our manners.)
The soldier smiled and
shook his head. He gestured
to another who was standing
nearby. “Her majesty would
like her dinner now.”
The other man laughed, but
headed off to find me something
to eat.
The days dragged on. Fear
was soon replaced by boredom.
Once sometimes twice a
day, I got something to eat. It
wasn’t great, but it wasn’t all
that bad either. Plus, there was
always clean water to drink.
Each day there was a different
guard outside my tent.
Most of them ignored me, but
there was one who was nice
to me. If no one was around,
Chibote would come into the
tent and talk. He even played
games with me, games he
said he used to play with his
daughter.
One day I asked him where
she was.
He looked away for a moment
then turned back. I
would have been frightened
by the look in his eyes, but
there were tears there as well
as anger.
“They took her away from
me. They came into my house
one night when I was away.
My wife and my baby daughter…”
Then he stood up, wiped
his eyes with the back of his
hands, and left me alone to
wonder what had happened to
his family.
I remember asking, “But can’t
we find homes for all the boys
and girls?”
“I’m so sorry, Lisa, but we
can’t do that.”
It was six months after I’d
gone to live in the camp. One
morning, Josh woke me up
and pointed in the direction
of the strangers. Then he just
walked away.
The woman’s clothes reminded
me of my mom’s. The
man’s suit made me think of
my dad when he went off to
meetings at the U.N. I looked
down at my clothes and tried
to remember what they’d once
looked like.
The woman spotted me.
When she started walking
toward me, I almost ran away,
but instead, I stood perfectly
still.
“Lisa, honey, is that you?”
I nodded my head. “I’m
Lisa.”
“Over here,” she called
to the man in the suit. “I’ve
found her.”
When she got close, I looked
down at my feet and asked,
“Who are you? How do you
know my name?”
“Sweetheart, your daddy’s
friends sent us to look for
you. We’ve been looking
everywhere.”
“Hello, Lisa,” the man said.
“We’ve come to take you
home.”
“I don’t have a home anymore,”
I whispered.
The woman took a deep
breath. When she spoke, it
sounded like she was going to
cry. “We know. But there’s a
very nice couple who wants
you to come and stay with
them.”
That’s when I asked the
question about the other
children. As I walked to the
big black car, I looked over my
shoulder.
“What about Josh? He’s
my best friend. Can he come
with us?”
The man opened the car
door for me. “We can’t take
anyone but you, Lisa.”
The lady walked to the other
side of the car and got in. I
looked around one last time.
I wanted a family. To sleep
in a bed. To have enough to
eat and drink. To change my
clothes. But I wanted to take
my friends with me, especially
Josh. Then I caught a glimpse
of the bottle of water and the
cupcake the lady was offering
me. I shrugged my shoulders
and cocked my head.
“It’s your sixth birthday,
Lisa.”
Slowly, I climbed into the
car. I ate the cupcake and
drank every drop of water.
Then I fell asleep. The car was
so comfortable, and for the
first time in months, I felt safe.
When I woke up, I was leaning
against my rescuer’s arm. I
was embarrassed and quickly
sat up, but she didn’t seem to
mind. She just pointed out the
window at a big house and
said, “We’re here.”
I had never seen such a
beautiful home. It was even
bigger than ours. A very pretty
white woman came running
down the front steps. Even
from inside the car, I could see the tears running down her
cheeks.
She pulled open the door.
I scooted away from her and
bumped into the woman sitting
beside me. “Oh, precious,
I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to
scare you.” She took a few
steps back from the car. “I’m
Mrs. James. Do you remember
me? My husband and I came
to your house for supper a
couple of times.”
I looked at her for a few
minutes, and then nodded my
head. She held out her hand,
and I inched out of the car.
When we got inside, I could
hardly believe my eyes. Everything
was perfect. There were
pictures on the walls. Pictures
of smiling, happy children.
“They’re our children, Lisa.
But they’re all grown up now.
They live in the United States.”
She pointed to other
pictures. “And these are our
grandchildren. We miss them
very much.”
“I miss my mommy and my
daddy. I miss my sister, too.”
It looked like she was going
to cry again, but instead, she
swallowed hard and said,
“Let’s get you cleaned up. My
husband will be home soon,
and we can have a special
supper. It will be your birthday
celebration. OK?”
I smiled shyly and nodded
my head. That day I had a
bath. I put on clean clothes.
And I ate supper at a table
with real silverware. I could
only eat a little before my
stomach began to ache.
The woman who had found
me gave me a quick hug. She
and the man left, and I was
alone in that big house with
my new family. How could it
be real? It must be a dream.
And speaking of dreams…
That night I woke up screaming.
Soldiers. My mom. My
dad. Natalie. Hiding. The
camp. Josh reaching out to me.
Mrs. James came running.
She gathered me in her arms
and rocked me. She rubbed my
back and sang a song —a song
my mom used to sing when I
got scared.
Maybe I would be OK, after all.
Chibote watched out for
me. When I was hungry, he
brought extra food. When I
was thirsty, he made sure I
had water. When I didn’t think
I could be any more bored, he
brought me a stack of paper
and a handful of pencils. Lisa
was the one who liked to draw,
but at least it was something
to do. I kept track of the days,
making a mark on one of the
sheets every morning when I
woke up.
Two days after I mentioned
I felt silly wearing pajamas
all the time, there were two
shirts and a couple of pairs of
pants at the end of my cot. I
often wondered where clothes
my size had come from, but I
never asked.
There was no guard outside
my door eight days after I was
brought to the camp. Chibote
came to tell me I could wander
around if I wanted. He pointed
at a large tent and said I must
never go anywhere near it. He
also warned me not to leave
the camp. Then he was called
away, and I just stood there.
Normally, I would have been
excited. I loved to explore, but
something held me back. I
knew I didn’t belong there. For
the first five nights, I’d cried
myself to sleep. After that,
the tears just seemed to dry
up. I dreamt of my family, but
none of my dreams made any
sense to me. I screamed once,
but I was told never to do that
again. When a large man with
a gun flung over his shoulder,
wearing military khakis tells
you to shut up, you shut up.
I began to wander around
the camp. I was timid at first,
but when all the men ignored
me, I became bolder. The
weeks went by, and I learned
about every corner of that
camp, on my side of the tent
at least. When I would get too
close to the perimeter, someone
would scowl at me and
point in the opposite direction.
As adventurous —or foolhardy—
as I became, I never went
near the tent in the center
of camp. Chibote’s warning
ensured that.
The months passed. Life in
the camp became my reality.
Chibote wasn’t the only one
who paid attention to me.
One morning, just after dawn,
Banda burst into my tent.
“Happy birthday, Recruit.”
Recruit? I didn’t get it.
“Get dressed. It’s time for
your training to begin.”
I had no idea what he had
in mind, but I scrambled out
of bed and put on my clothes.
When I poked my head out of
the tent, he shoved the handle
of a pistol in my face.
“Take this.”
I shook my head.
“When your superior officer
gives you an order, you do as
you’re told. Get it?”
“Um, OK.” The gun was
heavier than I expected. I just
stared at it in my hand.
“Come with me.” He began
to walk away, and I had no
choice but to follow. “And
from now on, when I tell you
to do something, the only
thing I want to hear is ‘Yes,
Sir!’ Understand?”
I nodded.
Banda stopped and took me
by the shoulders. “What are
you supposed to say?”
“Yes, Sir,” I whispered.
“I didn’t hear you.”
I stood up straight and
looked him in the eye. I blinked
back the tears. I wouldn’t
let him get the best of me.
“Yes, Sir!”
“That’s better.”
Before he turned away, I
thought I saw the hint of a
smile.
Every day, I learned something
new. I began to become
a soldier. At first, it scared me,
but then it was like a game. I
learned to shoot. I learned to
read maps. I learned to carry a
backpack that seemed almost
as heavy as I was.
The soldiers became my
family, and the camp became
my home.
To be continued